Monday, May 30, 2011

What was I thinking??!!

This was me at 26. I was very sad and very overweight. (What I really want to type is FAT) I was on the verge of a divorce and my kids were only 3, 5, and 7. What showed on the outside was a pretty good reflection of the mess I was on the inside.

This is me last summer at 33. Very happy, spending time with family standing next to my oldest now 15. Looking good if I say so myself. But here's the problem I still thought I was FAT!!!! What was I thinking??!! I still looked in the mirror as disgusted as I did when I was 26 and truly overweight.

So that brings me to today. I have gained 30 lbs since last summer. I have spent the last month beating myself up inside, saying mean things and eating like CRAP!!!! I am ashamed to tell people I teach workout classes worried what they would think looking at such a FAT woman. Today I started a healthy eating plan and a new workout plan. I am following the workout routine on It combines kettle bell workouts and cardio. I will lose this 30lbs. I always do. This time I'm going to figure out as the pounds come off what it will take to be happy with the way I look when I reach my goal. I can blame all kinds of things for my warped self image but really at this point it's about me. If my self worth is actually rooted in God and who He says I am then it won't matter what other people think of me, past or present, thin or fat. I just started reading a book by Angela Thomas, called Do you know who I am? (she is also the author of My single mom life, my all time favorite book for single moms) In the introduction she quotes J.J. Packer who says "There is...great incentive to worship and love God in the thought that, for some reason, He wants me as his friend, and desires to be my friend, and has given His Son to die for me in order to realize this purpose". WOW! So my prayer is that this time as I lose these 30 lbs I also begin to know the person that God chose to be His friend.

Saturday, May 28, 2011

Let's try this again

Hi! I have tried before to be a "blogger" but I have about as much success as I used to have keepting a diary when I was a teenager! (on second thought it might be a good thing that there is no written evidence of those days) Anyway, I am about to start a very exciting 21 day prayer challenge for mother's of sons. I thought a blog would be a great place to keep track of all the exciting things God is doing as we commit to praying for ours sons for 21 days.

So.....on with the challenge. I recently discovered a GREAT resource and will be one of many Mom's hosting small groups all over the country using this book
This book will be your guide through scripture to pray for your sons for the 21 day challenge. We will start this amazing journey on June 8th.

I know you are all asking what's involved because we are all busy women. It's easy, each day for 21 days we will be praying a about a specific subject in our son's lives. Obedience, love, pride, and integrity just to name a few. Each subject has 10 prayers that you will pray for your son throughout the day. I will be sending out encouragement throughout the challenge and we can post on this sight the great things God is doing in our son's lives.

To get started hop on over to Brooke's site and purchase the ebook for only 5.95. While you are there subscribe to her her blog. She will have announcements throughout the challenge and even some giveaways. Finally, post a comment on my blog that includes your email address or shoot me an email so I can put you on the list for our group!

God is going to do mighty things during this 21 day challenge. I believe when Mom's come together to pray for their children amazing things can happen!